Spaciousness

I’m out the door just after my last meeting ends at 10:00. Today looks pretty much like every morning has looked for the past week. Or maybe fortnight. Fortnight…I do like that word.

I get to the parking lot at the beach and the water looks inviting and fairly smooth. However the most noticeable thing here is the completion of the pull up bars next to the bathrooms. There are even people using them. Dana Point is really going all out here sprucing up the facilities.

I head down the stairs and there are more surfers in the water than I have seen in a while. I wonder why. Surf is not terrible but not spectacular. Maybe it’s because school as recently let out for the Summer (I think)? I get in the water and I’m happy to say it is warmer than it was on Monday. It’s not 70 degrees or anything like that but I’d give it a solid 65. Not bad at all.

I head south today and it is a pretty great swim. My thoughts are scattered all over the place and I’m feeling out of sorts but I guess that is normal for going through a divorce and needing to move multiple times in one month and not knowing when someone is going to turn off the fire hose attached to your bank account. I just can’t seem to be able to find the emergency shutoff.

Anyways of all the places I can think of, this is probably the best place to be right now. The water is a lovely clear teal color and every time I pause to look around me, I can hear the very pleasant chirping of some birds on the shore. As I look north towards Laguna, there is a screen of mist over the coastal hills just past Monarch.

I feel disoriented on the inside and thoughts just seem to swirl inside of me and there is no quieting them but still this water does them good. It gives me a sense of spaciousness. There is an abundance of space and calm out here below the surface that feels so soothing just to look at.