dizzy

I let my thoughts roam free
and just come and go as they please
Watching them like a movie
and wonder which thought or memory
will slide by my consciousness next
Can I let it wander loose
without trying to reign it in?
Like an involuntary reflex
I want to relive these inner impressions
as if I am the starring role
and I assume this style of method acting
that demands me to pull them into my present experience
and enmesh them with my sense
of who I am now
I fall back and forth between attachment and detachment
and grow dizzy as I become aware of the
awareness of
awareness of
awareness and so forth